Restlessness is a symptom of our need to act. Often as we marshal our creative energies, we at first feel restless, even irritable. We want to act before we know how to act, or where. Our disquiet is actually the harbinger of our growth.
- Julia Cameron, author of The Artist’s Way
I admit it: I’m getting cranky. Or restless, as Cameron so nicely puts it. I’d hoped to use the summer months to write fiction, and, frankly, I’ve failed. I am, however, working hard not to get too down on myself.
I’ve actually been pretty productive the past several weeks. I’ve finished a few rugs, wrote a lot in my journal – especially on vacation. I’ve done a fair amount of reading. And I’ve been spending time at my local food pantry. Surprise! In June, knowing about one of my prior professional lives, they asked if I was interested in taking the reins from the soon-to-retire director. Would I? Hell, yeah! Hence, I have a part time job starting just after Labor Day.
Will the new job take away from The Polished Paragraph? I doubt it even with fall being a prime “editing season.” High school seniors are working on their college application essays, and I do a lot of work with them. I suspect, though, that I’ll be going a little crazy come the holiday season. That’s a busy, busy time in pantry-land.
Will the new job take away from writing fiction? That’s a trickier question, especially since I’ve ramped up High on Hooking‘s production. I’ve been asked to put my wares into another shop, but to do so definitely requires more inventory. What I’m hoping happens is that, as all these tasks start piling up on my to-do list, my innate sense of efficiency kicks in, the one I used to have when I worked full-time and still managed to write and take classes and do a host of other activities. And I’m a mom, damnit! We’re trained to do eight things at once.
The good thing is that I have a couple more weeks before the sh… hits the fan. And creativity is itching to get out of me in the form of a short story. (I won’t even mention that I’ll owe my writing group a story come early September too.) I’ve been pretty good with the morning pages, so things are percolating. It feels good when I sit at my writing table, hold a pencil, and scrawl across the paper.
Every now and again I do have to remind myself that I’m a writer and that a writer writes…more than blog pieces, more than Facebook posts, more than items on a to-do list.
What about you? Do you get the crankies – I mean restless – when you’re ramping up to write or otherwise give voice to your creative juices? How do you handle your anticipation?